August 2009
10 posts
They say a picture is worth 1000 words
Read to me what this says
Trainwreck
Everything was fine. She missed him. She wanted it back. I was fine. Maybe she wasnt over me, so i kept going. I (thought it) was fine. We talked about “us,” a fleeting subject. She asked “whats the point of liking someone if you cant be with them all time?” i talked about moving there. How everything seemed to be running well. Not a problem with the tracks. Then she asked...
Things I Want Her to Know About Me
i’m what the other boys all promised.
i’m that guy that won’t let you down.
Wakarimasu
i don’t understand myself? haha. Well see i feel pretty good. i have a smile on my face cause im thinking about how good a part of my life is. Then i think of the future and see nothing. I look at another part of my life and see failure. Yet the most prevalent light is the good part. I’m done dwelling on bad things i guess. Seems like i’m taking my advice and really looking at...
I Lie To Myself Cause I Do It Best
at this very moment im not happy and im not sad. I’m stuck in the void between said emotions. The space between such emotions is infinite i believe. I can’t seem to get to either side without the assistance of others. I can’t fend for myself i guess. Another day and night wasted on chasing nothing. Dreams aren’t just slipping away but now seem out of reach. Time has never...
I Waste All My Time Just Thinking Of You
many told me to stop dead in my tracks since day one. That what i’ve been pursuing over the past 7 months (8?) was not worth it. The funny thing is that you’ve all been wrong since day one. It’s all been worth it. Every miserable, lonely, happy, awesome, terrible, meaningless, meaningful, second since i started talking to Kelsey Koontz has been worth it. She’s exactly the...
Call It Love
Back home in my bed. Its never looked so big before. I shared only one night with her in my arms here but it was the greatest. Then i spent two nights with her and i felt so complete even with my lack of sleep. I cant describe how much i miss her; how much i wish that she was sleeping next to me. Her (sickly) breathing, her soft skin, and her wonderfully smelling (messed up) hair. I wish it was...
“Me and him dated”
– Awesome. Good for you. Celebrate mediocrity with that low-life asshole. The scum that plagues earth worse. Maybe you can have a kid with him too and have him abandon you which is more than likely according to his record.
Im a Sucker For Her
I can help my feeling. I can help not feeling a thing for her. I can be the opposite of what i am. I could care less. I can brush everything off and move on. But i wont. Thats not who i am. I want Kelsey Koontz and everything that comes with her. Bring the pain, bring the hate. Bring on the lonely, miserable nights full of despair. Im ready for anything and im taking it differently now. Chin up,...