April 2009
65 posts
I Don't Know About The Future
but girls are definitely the least of my troubles right now. i’m done caring and focusing on them all the time. I’m done trying to get them (at least for now), i just don’t feel like they should be that big a deal anyway. Right now my main priorities are my friends, my band, and getting promoted at Food 4 Less.
just a draft (work in progress)
i’ve been here before
shaken through and through
down to the core
reality is such a bore
is there nothing more?
the whole world seems to be
plotting against me
nothing seems to be working out
what is this all about?
down i go again
seems like the latest trend
even if this is the end
at least i’ve got my friends
(what do you all think)?
I Cause My Troubles
I Will Overcome. Always
Stay
Close
Life is Good
The pending issues will blow over, i wanna say i’ll stay close, but honestly it’s become routine. Those who come and go in my life have been doing so for almost a year now. Make up your minds.
Come Clean
god damn. i have some shit to own up to. I’ll contact you tomorrow Nikki
School Boy Humor - Parting Words of Welcome...
welcome back to the past
just as unappreciated as i used to be. i knew you’d change again. For no apparent reason, just like before, throw a real down ass homie out. It’s cool, i kept running strong last time and i’ll do it again. If you ain’t got love for me, i ain’t got love for you. I’m one of the few who were there for you through and fucking through. Hope you realize this soon....
Brand New - Failure By Design
Can't Believe It
I’m a hypocrite.
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perlagee:
hahahha always gets me in a great mood ^_^
Phone Death & Revival
I had a phone call i prepared for. The moment came to speak and the recipient had to leave. i thought about throwing my phone on the floor then i thought “fuck that, plus this is my 3rd phone and i don’t wanna break it.” so i threw it at my bed where there’s 5 pillows laying. Phone flew over all pillows and slammed against the damn wall. It fucked up and the battery flew...
The Years Gone By - You Might As Well Be In Space
Had To Happen At Some Point
played a show in yuma tonight (4/19/09) and we sucked. half of the 12 kids crowd left the room and we messed up. i forgot words and was very distracted the entire time. my voice wasn’t working with me. The mic cord was short and i kept tripping. I felt awkward. This has never happen to me. The only times i get nervous are around girls. That’s it. Not every show can go as you want it to...
London in America
Hung out last night with two super chill guys from London. They’re staying at Jamie’s house until monday. i’m glad these guys are as cool as they are, seriously. This could’ve played out in so many ways but they’re badass. Telling funny ass fat jokes at in n out, and just fitting in. you know?
I’m looking forward to the rest of these days
I Don't Know What To Call Them
i’m there for every single one of my friends. No matter what. i’ve countless times disobeyed my parents and many other rules from superiors for you guys and a simple practice comes along and no one is here. Try to blame me for this shit. I’m at home right now and i have been for the longest time. I wish my friends fucking cared about the band and about me. This is straight up...
My Hands Are Clean
this day after day confusion on what’s going on is irritating. Once again back to this shitty god damn feeling. I thought this time it would be different, and it was. I appreciate everything you do, when will you appreciate me in action? i do a lot. for everyone. i care too much about everyone. I get offended easily by my friends, but can you really blame me? it’s not hard to please...
All For Nothing →
I Don't Get It
We’re friends. and damn good ones. i’d do anything for you. break my back to make sure everything’s cool. I do one little thing and that’s the fucking end of the day? c’mon. i would never abandon you like that. Never. Been there since day one and never left, not even in those dark times, i still had your back in a fight or anything like that. Never talked shit,...
My Life Would Suck Without You
Guess this means you’re sorry You’re standing at my door Guess this means you take back All you said before Like how much you wanted Anyone but me Said you’d never come back But here you are again ‘Cause we belong together now, yeah Forever united here somehow, yeah You got a piece of me And honestly, My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you Maybe...
Kelly Clarkson - My Life Would Suck Without You
Drunk Sincerity
have another margarita and spill the truth again
Timing's Everything
why is it taking so long for you to see
we’re meant to be
Stuck At A Crossroads
i’ve gone down every road and they all lead me back here. now i’m stuck and don’t know what to do. what will be the next move?
“Should i hold back and keep my pride in tact?”
– this is my “state of life” right now (With The Punches - Stick and Move)
I Miss The Feeling
of having you in my life
The Wonder Years - You’re Not Salinger. Get...
“My Friends and I
We’re all fucked on the inside
But we don’t let...”
– The Wonder Years - You’re Not Salinger. Get Over it.
She Plays Her Part So Eloquently
her soft stare
and love-filled eyes
are nothing but
a mere distraction (now)
i’ve lost hope
i’ve lost the energy
to deal with the games
you play with me
apathy starts to kick in
anger releases but my fists
are still clenched
well you never call
you don’t seem to care at all
im next to you but i couldn’t
feel further
don’t come around
acting like...
It Was Definitely Not Me, It's Totally You
you’re nothing special
you don’t mean shit to us
you follow such faulty morals
you take the easy way out
when everything you loved
and thought was gonna last forever
all of a sudden
is nowhere to be found
where will you turn to?
what will you become?
your road to destruction is obvious
HOW WILL YOU FIX THIS MESS
when it’s all over
and you world is UPSIDE DOWN
...
Trapped In A Memory
There’s no point
in even trying to please you
and everything i do
just brings me back to you
how can i forget her
i am the boat and she is my anchor
i gave you my all
day after day
you ignored my calls
day after day
it feels like im trapped in a memory
this whole town is punishing me
you’re the one to blame
what a shame WHAT A SHAME
you made me feel so broken
im glad...
Don't Stop Dreaming
-Don’t Stop Dreaming
im not ready for life
but it started last week
im running out choices
my chances look bleak
but im trying so god damn hard
i’ll never give up
what this world throws at me
i’ll return TEN-FOLD
plant your feet on the ground
and take a look around
stop blaming this town
no one’s holding you back
you’re the only one at fault
but...
Back To The Old Technique
pulling up your picture and letting my heart speak (in song).
The Feeling Is Mutual
any of you can say what you want, but my friend xJamiex is a damn good person. i love that guy. Glad to have him by my side again. Just goes to show that even through it all, our friendship is definitely worth it.
how long
will this last? this treacherous feeling. It’s funny that im in the lowest state i’ve been in a while, and just a year ago on easter i felt at the top.
What happened? why did we even meet?
The Devil And God Are Raging Inside Me
so much love and hate inside me. It’s too much. I want to give up on life.
I Miss My Friends
I miss jamie, krownz, frank, andylefthand, and even lil andrew. i miss max too. I’ve also missed Nate for a wihle. I don’t think i’m appreciating them as much as i should. I shouldn’t expect what i don’t give or show. This blog is hypocritical but i’ll continue.
i miss my friends. gone for a day or two, and i miss them all. My phone is dead so idk if they...
Secrets
secret secrets are no fun
secret secrets hurt someone
honestly hate when girls (guys) like whisper into each other’s ears with a bunch of other ppl around.
im not having a good time and idk what to do. i don’t have a car and i don’t know what’s going on. What are the plans: stay clueless, i guess. i honestly wish i could go home right now.
Oh say what? watch the...
say what?
a date? i’m pretty sure it’s not LOL
Pray
today goes well
if you're wondering why i'm slacking it on posts →
Strangle Yourself With The Phone Cord While You...
Got off the phone just now not feeling too great. My momma just walked into the room with some exfoliating cream and she’s just cracking jokes. love her<3 lifting my spirits but you’re still in the back of my head. Josie is funny too. But i’m just laughing at her. Oh and i wrote a new song. didn’t take long at all hahaha. im gonna post our newest song up here on tumblr...
“Seriously, i’ll finger you for money”
– Jamie Orque
Breaking My Back
i break my back to please you. Give you your time, maybe what i did was a big deal, but i thought you got over it. A middle finger isn’t as bad as all the shit you said to me. I didn’t lash back either, i apologized. Fuck. I don’t know if i should regret it, but at this moment i feel like it was worthless. I miss you more by the second and i was gonna see you tomorrow but you...
i feel like writing but
my eyes are burning. going back to sleep till 11:20
always
trying my best