March 2009
40 posts
in all honesty
if i died tonight, none of you would fucking care. i feel alone in this world. friendships, relationships, people, you’re all bullshit; the time i need you all the most, is the time you let me down the most.
i got what i wanted
and idk what happened after that.
writing a new song
I’m the type of person
you don’t want as an enemy
hate me from a distance
cause you don’t wanna fuck with me
Hey, this song is about you
-Trapped In A Memory
There’s no point
in even trying to please you
and everything i do
just brings me back to you
so how can i forget her
i am the boat and she is my anchor
i gave you my all
day after day
you ignored my calls
day after day
it feels like im trapped in a memory
this whole town is only punishing me
it’s not hard to understand
why things turned out this...
Can't Stand The Feeling
i feel so fucking low again. i hate when things end the way i don’t intend them to. I hate a lot of things right now. im furious. i wanna beat the hell out of something. It is irrational. The only thing keeping me sane is myself, yet im the one who wants out of my skin.
this may be cliche, but i pray to you, God: help me.
i've ran out of ideas
and im running out of actions now
Fireworks - Geography, Vonnegut, and Me
Freshman15 - She’s Everything
With Those Eyes She's So Hard To Get Over
funny how life can be completely awesome one entire day then the next one is just not the same. I’m not saying i had a bad day, but an aspect of it was bad. my friend Kelsey is super mad at me. she’s over everything and frankly i wish i was too. I never try this hard to remain someone’s friend but god damn, i tried super hard and it just ended in fail. awesome. exactly what i...
Not Used To Feeling So Good
loving life & life is loving me back
Not Used To Feeling So Low
Yesterday was an amazing day and night. So now i wonder why today i feel so low. Nothing bad has happened. There’s something in the air that just makes today way shitty. I want this feeling to go away soooo bad.
Today should be a good day, i even made a plan and everything. Chill with Adrian and make 12seconds videos all day until Jamie gets out, then we’re going running. I’m...
The Apathy Eulogy - Two To Tango, One To Miss
$$$
i totally need money. my mood is affected by it. when i know im poor, i’m sad. money makes me happy, and i actually am not a bad person with it. i don’t spend it won worthless, pointless stupid shit. i actually buy cool stuff i need, and i also buy a lot of ppl stuff. i want money
You've Got A Friend In Me
if you ever have a problem or just really feel like saying something to someone:
760-619-9561
AIM: xcarlosxe760
Twitter: xCarlosx
do that and i’ll respond. i’ll be there for you. You’ve got a friend in me.
Dear Writer's Block
FUCK YOU
Four Year Strong - Love Song
tattoo
i know what i want to get for 4 tattoos.
top of feet: (right) i <3 mom (left) i <3 dad
collar bone: Legends Never Die
Below ear: Penguin (portrait)
i really want a straight edge tattoo but i don’t know what to get :/
Street Fighter IV
just got done playing street fighter 4. it’s 5:08 AM. my sleeping schedule is non-existant. the worst part of it is that i really wanna go for a run right now hahaha. maybe i’ll just stay up…
we’ll see. it’s hot in my room. hmmm. anyway, im good. today sucked (yesterday technically)
“what made me think i needed you?”
– Rivalz
Mistakes
i always feel like im making mistakes
even when things are good
my heart still aches
i may not be a winner
and im well-known for losing
but giving up has never been an option
Kid Cudi - The Prayer
“Life is a test and i get bad marks”
– Brand New - Degausser
Watchthis one is for Krownz
“Nobody hates a liar
More than me”
– The Years Gone By - This Time, It’s Our Time
honesty
everyone please be honest with me. i may not have the best attitude/temper, but don’t assume i’m going to get mad at everything cause i probably won’t. i hate lies though.
i'll make sure →
im happy
haven’t felt absolutely great in a while. obviously there’s room for improvement, but at this very moment i feel fantastic. love everyone, especially my friends <3
Dedication
im too dedicated to my band, friends, and people in general. My family points it out every chance they get. i didn’t get home till 5AM yesterday. i was hella tired but i did it anyway. I just really hope ppl see what im doing and recognize it. I also hope that i’m not the only one putting my heart and soul into this band (again). This is really my dream and i just wish everyone was...
Procrastinator
This word applies to many parts of my life, not just when it comes to school.
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“I am not straight edge(d) I don’t abstain from drugs, drinking, smoking and...”
– xLooking Forwardx Interview - this pretty much sums it all up
Still Straight Edge
i haven’t posted shit about being edge. i think… ever.
So here is what i have to say on that in a 25 “facts” about me and my conviction
-I’ve been (claiming) edge for about 5 years now.
-I drank once when i was 12 i believe. can’t remember the exact age. (didn’t even want to)
-Before i had a taste of a couple of beers when i was in the early ages...
